November 9th Calm
I was not calm this morning. On the contrary, Monday’s first light conspired to make me edgy and quick to judge and generally explosive. I initially posted this image at the header, but it was not inspiring – not in the least – in fact it felt like a call to be self destructive. I waited to post and stared at that image in defiance and slowly the day started to relent, if ever so slightly, as I started to think about the things for which I am grateful.
If there’s one thing I’ve learned from this blog is that it images and words can bring you down faster that you can imagine. But a reflective moment, coffee with a sympathetic colleague or a short walk in the park can transform a perfectly dreadful morning into a hope-filled afternoon. I’m not quite at the “hope-filled” stage at the moment but as least I’m not primed for explosion.
I am completely self-centered at the moment, and that’s okay because today I’m at least thankful that:
- despite the times I feel completely inconsequential, someone shines a light in my eyes.
- I started this blog – it’s been a great equalizer for me and I’ve learned that Mondays are perhaps particularly suited for a few moments of reflection.
- I didn’t do anything crazy and/or rash this morning, thanks to a few gentle but well-timed words from a friend.
For what are you thankful?